6-12-2010

Very humid & warm morning for a jog. Never-the-less still did a 3 mile circuit which included a 1/2 mile walk to warm up & stretch out, followed by a 1.5 mile jog, and then cool down walk for another 3/4 mile. Much sweat & fatigue because of the brutal conditions. It was like jogging in a sauna. Thank goodness I wore a bandana to keep the sweat off my face & out of my eyes.

While I was walking this morning I began to think. Most times when I'm walking, it's a good time for me to reflect, pray, contemplate the future, etc. This morning though I as my mind wandered I thought about all the times people made comments about my weight in the past. Mind you, I didn't get huge by any measure, but my waistline was expanding considerably and I had the appearance I swallowed a keg. The more I thought about the mindless comments made by friends and family about my weight, the more I became pissed off. Rather than offer to ask me to workout with them or inquire if I was exercising, they instead jokingly poked at me with their stupid ass comments. You know it's bad enough when one is struggling with the thought of being overweight and trying to do something about it, not to mention fighting the physical aspects, but when someone makes what seems like minor comments, it still bothers me. Trying to lose weight and keep it off is a daily struggle which screws with your mind and often times causes depression, which only compounds ones' struggles. In other words be considerate of someone who has gained weight. If they want to bring up the subject and discuss it, so be it. But keep stupid remarks to yourself. Words hurt.